Internet flattery/stupidity

Sometimes I go onto online chat sites to talk to random gay guys. Since I'm in the closet I have no real communication with gay men...at all. So I sometimes find the chat sites useful to just talk to folk.

Anyway so I was on the chat site (fully clothed might I add!) and this very hot guy came on and talked to me. At this exact time I was busy watching something online so just left the window minimised expecting the hot guy to go and find someone else to talk to. Five minutes later my video finishes and I go back to the chat site. The hot guys sitting naked jerking off...to my face. I'm completely wrapped up and am showing nothing below my shoulders. I wasn't winking, smiling, smirking, nothing! Just a vacant stare at a screen as I watched my video. I sat expressionless for another minute watching the hot guy, wondering why he was so turned on. Within the minute he finished himself off, his muscles flexing as he came. I was confused.

My initial thought was he had probably also minimised the window and was watching porn or something, not realising I was witnessing everything. But I was wrong. Once he had finished he stuck his thumb up and began chatting to me. I completely panicked and exited the chat window. I was surprised this guy had got so turned on by... just my face?! I have never thought as myself as especially "hot" just average. The only attention I've ever had has been from girls so I've never taken it to heart or took it very seriously but (despite being totally perverted) this had actually made me feel rather flattered! In the strangest form of flattery possibly...and one I won't actually take to heart...I swear. Was just a nice little surprised from a very naked hot guy. ;)

Awkward Skype Chats.

Recently I've had to start using skype to talk to someone that moved far away and I wanted to stay in touch with. Is it just me or is it bloody awkward!? Having the camera on and typing messages to one another is fine. Just talking without camera on is also fine. But camera and talking just seems to lead to interrupting eachother constantly and a series of "you go" "no, you!" *simultaneously* "ok, i'll go!"

Does anybody else find this? It's not like it's somebody I would normally feel awkward around, I know them very well but staring at them on a screen is just weird to me...

It is the best way to communicate long distance. You see them in person, hear their voice and get a true understanding of how they're doing. But it's almost too personal. I feel like if it's going to be that personal where I'm talking to them face to face I want to be with them in person. Talking to somebody on a computer screen is very personal and in your face but because the actual presence of the person is lost the intimacy feels uncomfortable. Does that make any sense?