ENTP

A friend of mine recently got a pair of Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI) books. I had never heard of this before, but when she asked to test me I thought it could be interesting so I went along with it. The test basically consisted of seeing two images, each with a caption that would read along the lines of "I think of my future often" or "I live in the moment" and the pictures would be somehow related. Another example would be a single picture of different shapes, some black and some white. The captions would then be "I see patterns" or "I see shapes and angles". For each set of caption you picked the one best suited to you. Most people experience some of each but normally feel one more strongly. There are four sections, each with around a dozen sets of pictures. At the end, your choices for each section are added up and you are given four letters that describe your personality.

Section 1: Extroverted or Introverted

Section 2: Sensing or iNtuition

Section 3: Thinking or Feeling

Section 4: Judging or Perceiving

So according to MBTI there are 16 personality types for everyone. As you can see from the post title I am ENTP. Normally I don't think much of personality tests as there are so many variables that can alter the outcome but this one seems pretty accurate.

A summary from good old Wikipedia:

ENTPs are the Inventors, one of the four types belonging to the temperament called the Rationals. ENTPs account for about 2–5% of the population.

E – Extraversion preferred to introversion: ENTPs gain energy through interactions with people or objects in the outside world. They tend to enjoy having a wide circle of acquaintances.

N – Intuition preferred to sensing: ENTPs tend to be more abstract than concrete. They focus their attention on the big picture rather than the details, and on future possibilities rather than immediate realities.

T – Thinking preferred to feeling: ENTPs tend to value objective criteria above personal preference. When making decisions, they generally give more weight to logic than to social considerations.

P – Perception preferred to judgment: ENTPs tend to withhold judgment and delay important decisions, preferring to "keep their options open" should circumstances change.

ENTPs are frequently described as clever, cerebrally and verbally quick, enthusiastic, outgoing, innovative, flexible, loyal and resourceful. ENTPs are motivated by a desire to understand and improve the world they live in. They are usually accurate in sizing up a situation. They may have a perverse sense of humor and sometimes play devil's advocate, which can create misunderstandings with friends, coworkers, and family. ENTPs are ingenious and adept at directing relationships between means and ends. ENTPs devise fresh, unexpected solutions to difficult problems. However, they are less interested in generating and following through with detailed plans than in generating ideas and possibilities. In a team environment, ENTPs are most effective in a role where they can draw on their abilities to offer deep understanding, a high degree of flexibility, and innovative solutions to problems. The ENTP regards a comment like "it can't be done" as a personal challenge, and, if properly motivated, will spare no effort to discover a solution. To the ENTP, competence and intelligence are particularly prized, both in themselves and in other people.

I think this is fairly accurate of myself. The book raised some particular points about everyday things the ENPT is likely to do which are also pretty bang on.

They love to argue for sport. Basically what was said on the wiki page, "they love to play devil's advocate". I find it fun debating topics with friends. Religion, politics, anything. Some friends I avoid this with because they think I want an argument rather than debate. "misunderstandings with friends, coworkers, and family"

ENTPs are basically optimists, but in spite of this (perhaps because of it?), they can become petulant about small setbacks and inconveniences. (Major setbacks they regard as challenges, and tackle with determination.)ENTPs have little patience with those they consider wrongheaded or unintelligent, and show little restraint in demonstrating this. In general, however, they are genial, even charming, when not being harassed by life.

I think this is pretty accurate. I find it hard to motivate myself to do little things but big problems are an opportunity to find an interesting solution.

The best approach in communicating with an ENTP is to be straightforward. No games – they’ll win. No "pulling rank" – they’ll just want to put you in your place. No apologies – you’ll undermine yourself. Try "I need/want to talk to you."

This is so true. The only person that can SOMETIMES win out in a witty debate with me is my friend who tested me. She is also an ENTP.

ENTPs may sometimes give the impression of being largely oblivious to the rest of humanity except as an audience: good, bad, or potential. In general this is unfair – but it can be difficult to get an ENTP’s attention when they’re not immediately aware of you, especially for an Introvert.

I've had this problem before. Someone I don't really notice or consider a great friend, suddenly comes out and asks why I never talk to them. It's not that I avoid them I just genuinely didn't think to make conversation with them. I also have a terrible memory for other people's activities. It's well known by my close friends that if you tell me you're going on holiday in a month, I'll accuse you of never mentioning it as you leave for the airport! It makes me seem self-absorbed but I just cannot remember things like that very well.

Some other points raised that were bang on. Loyalty is big thing. They run/go to the gym to relieve stress. They can get easily stressed by small everyday things in life. They will listen in class unless they deem their teacher incompetent in which case they will happily challenge them. They only properly learn from those they respect. They are easily bored in school if the work isn't challenging/varied enough. They have a fear of failure and will avoid activities that could make them look incompetent.

If you're interested in testing yourself, here's a website with a word version of the MBTI. It's not quite as good as the real deal but should hopefully give you an idea.

MBTI TEST

Relationships between personality types

This was very interesting. There's a chart to go with the MBTI that shows you what kind of relationships you have with other personality types. Relationship chart

Jen, the close friend of mine who I've had problems with, recently did the MBTI using the word version I linked. She found she was ENFJ (which she proudly told me was the same as Obama and Oprah...). According to the relationship chart, we are therefore in a Benefit relationship. With me as the Benefactor and her as the Beneficiary.

The Beneficiary can be impressed and delighted by their partner's behaviour, manners, thoughts and their ability to easily deal with things that the Beneficiary conceives as complicated. When partners are together, the Beneficiary involuntarily starts to ingratiate themselves with the Benefactor, trying to please them without any obvious reason.

This basically describes my relationship with Jen at the beginning. I remember her telling me a few of her friends disliked the fact she thought so highly of my opinion.

Relations of Benefit may appear even and conflict free. Usually it is the Benefactor who initiates the contact. Partners can even feel some kind of spiritual connection between them. However, relations last only as long as the Benefactor has something to give and the Beneficiary has need of it. If this major condition is no longer fulfilled, relations enter quite an unpleasant stage of their development.

Jen and I have always spoken of how close we are and how we'll always be close friends - "spiritual connection". I think recently, as we have both grown up, she no longer needs my help and I no longer have any way of helping her. Of course this isn't how I saw our relationship for the past 4 years but now that I have read this it makes a lot of sense. Jen was often very concerned with my opinion and would try to do what I thought was right rather than thinking for herself. I think that's changed over the past year and that's why we've drifted. It's good for her. She's standing on her own to feet and thinking for herself. But it probably means we won't go back to being as close as we once were. That's something I've accepted though.

This MBTI thing was pretty interesting, I encourage you to try it. :)

The Hangover Part II

I went to see the second Hangover last night. It was pretty good. Same basic formula. Starts with a phone call where they say they've fucked up and they've lost someone. Then go trawling all over Bangkok to find them. It's entertaining and I would say funnier than the first one just because some of the stuff is just so outrageous! It definately doesn't bring anything new to the table. They've just taken the first one and turned up the shock factor but I think it's worth a look.

If you liked the first one you'll like this.

3.5/5

Addictions Part III

This is the most serious addiction I think I've had, and something I've only ever spoken about with one person in my life. Self-harm.

Self-harm

In the past I have self-harmed. It first started when my best friend who I was in love with got a girlfriend. We were very close and we drifted abruptly when they started going out. I started to feel depressed and lonely. I thought I would never be able to just have a boyfriend like he had a girlfriend. I would never be able to be in a relationship where there were no problems and everybody in the school knew and thought it was “cute”. I thought I would constantly be stuck in a hell of never being able to openly love someone or be with them. This developed into a feeling of never being loved full-stop.

H and I were very close and so in losing him I felt I had nobody I could really talk to. In reality I had plenty of people but I just couldn’t see it. I began cutting my wrists. I remember the first time and even what sent me over the edge and it was an absolute stupid reason. I can see that clearly now but at the time I was in such a poor emotional state anything would have driven me to it. At first I was upset and ashamed. I swore I would never do it again. The next week I was still feeling incredibly depressed and I had begun to develop throbbing headaches continually. They weren’t sharp or acutely painful, but just a constant ache in my mind. So to get rid of this I cut again. The physical pain distracted me. I no longer thought about anything else and went straight to sleep afterwards.

For the next couple of months I continued to self-harm. Over time I became immune to it. I was depressed and just felt completely numb. Numb to people, to emotion, to pain, anything. I remember accidentally catching my fingernail on the edge of chair while I was moving it and ripping the top half of my finger nail off. I felt barely anything. It’s the strangest thing, you can build up an immunity to pain. This of course meant the cutting got worse as I needed to do more damage to feel the same level of release. I was addicted to it.

During this time I became so incredibly depressed I considered committing suicide many times. It actually scares me how close I was to doing it. The thing that always stopped me was that I didn’t want to hurt my family. Despite my numbness to school, friends and everything else. I couldn’t stand hurting my family like that. I continued to think about it and in times of desperation I would cut deeper only to find it just left worse scars and never actually put me in danger of dying.

The thing that stopped this cycle? My dog. My family got a new puppy over the Easter Holidays and it became my new obsession. I was with it constantly and felt happier. As it was the holidays I was away from the stresses of school and friends so I managed to feel better. It was gradual but there was just one time I went to cut and just thought...why? So I didn’t. It happened a few times but it wasn’t on a daily basis like before. I honestly think my dog saved my life. Before that I didn’t see a way out.

A lot of people think self-harm is about attention seeking. And I think perhaps for some it is, but for me it wasn’t. I never showed my cuts to anyone and kept my arms covered during the time I cut and for around 4/5 months afterwards until the scars healed. It wasn’t something I wanted to showcase, it was something I was ashamed of. I still have very very faint scars now but they aren’t noticeable unless you know to look for them.

I did end up telling H about a month after I had stopped. I hadn’t spoken to anyone during the time I was cutting but afterwards I gradually came back and tried to mend any friendships I had torn. H came over to my house one day and we began talking. Just casually at first, but then he started asking what had been wrong with me the past few months. He had been extremely worried about me but didn’t know what to do. I said it was nothing and not to worry about it but he pushed and reminded me about all the things we had spoken about in the past and that I could trust him with anything. So I told him. He got upset and wanted me to know he was always there for me and I tried to reassure him it was fine I had moved past it. It was good. I felt it helped me move on from it finally by telling someone.

I didn’t cut again for 18 months. It was at a party. I had been incredibly stressed, didn’t know what I was doing with my life, felt so much pressure, had a little bit too much Jack Daniels and when someone said something I didn’t like, I snapped. They took my half full bottle of whiskey and poured it out and went on some speech about how they were doing what’s right. They didn’t really know me and they were very drunk themselves so I snapped. I shouted at them and got told to calm down so I ran off to the bathroom. I sat on the bathroom floor for what seemed like a few minutes but was told later I was gone for over an hour. While I was in the bathroom I had “calmed down” by cutting. I needed to feel numb again. There was just too much pressure on me. When I came out again, there were people looking for me including H. He recognised something was wrong immediately and it didn’t take him long to figure it out. I was a mess, and he sat with me till about 2am when he had to go home. He kept everyone away from me and just tried to find out why I’d done it but I wasn’t really in a fit state to talk properly. H still tried and this is a shortened version of what how the conversation went (or what I remember of it):

H: “Ethan, what is this all about?”

Me: “What?”

H: “This. Everything, there’s something you aren’t telling me I know it but you have to”

Me(very very drunk): “There’s nothing, forget about it”

(Lot’s of him asking and me brushing it off)

H: “Ethan, I know...”

Silence

Me: “Know what...”

H: “That there’s something you’ve been holding in for years, just tell me. You can tell me anything”

Me: (still incredibly drunk and shaking): “H, don’t make me”

H: “It’s okay, you can tell me!”

Me: “Please don’t make me...”

H: “ Okay, okay, I won’t”

(If I seem coherent in this conversation it’s because it’s summarised. My head was between my knees and most times he said anything I didn’t reply. We talked for a lot longer than this, this is just what I remember of what I did say.)

This has replayed in my head quite a few times. I was so very close to just blurting it out but I didn’t. A tiny sober part of me remembered that there was a tomorrow where I would have to face the consequences. Still, when I think about H’s choice of words and the fact he wasn’t surprised when I asked him not to make me tell him, I can’t help but think...does he know anyway? It certainly seems so? But then am I just thinking he knows because I know what it is, when in actual fact he might just know there is something. Who knows. We never spoke about it again. He talked to me the next day to check I was okay but never about our conversation.

Since then I have relapsed a few times, but nothing notable. It’s always times of great stress. And whenever I have done it since I haven’t been very drunk or depressed. Just stressed and it’s a coping mechanism. I still know it’s not healthy and I avoid it. I haven’t done it for about 10 months now but I know I’m more prone to it. This recent change in my attitude had made me feel I am less likely to resort to such drastic measures in the future. I’m more relaxed about life in general. I see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Addictions part II

Over the years I’ve had obsessions with food. Usually this is harmless and will be along the lines of, I eat lots of tuna one month, or I buy a lot of Starbucks. When I was younger it was more of an issue as I ate too many unhealthy foods so was pretty overweight. This addiction to food rapidly went to the opposite extreme about 3 years ago and I began to not eat enough food. I was unhappy with my body and wanted it to change quickly. I stopped eating breakfast and lunch and would only eat when there was a family member around so that it looked like I was still eating lots. If we were having dinner, I would eat lots and have seconds. This way it looked like I was eating plenty but in reality that was the only thing I would eat all day. If my family were all away for a weekend or for dinner I would go the whole day not eating anything. It was strange, but hunger became a good feeling. If I was hungry, I was happy and the thought of food disgusted me.

As I lost the weight, I began to exercise daily. Going running every day sometimes 3 different times in the day. I would get up early and go before school, then when I got home, then again later at night. This continued for about 1 and half years to the stage were I was pretty thin. I wasn’t skeletal as I still ate, but I was much, much thinner than I had been and it had happened over a short period. I grew over this time as well which made the weight loss appear to be even greater. My mother often commented in passing saying I was getting far too thin but I just put it down to my growth and continued to eat large meals in front of her so it was never really talked about. Missing out lunch at school was commented on at school by a few friends but all I had to say was I ate massive breakfasts and there were no more questions asked.

The starving/exercise stage occurred during the episode with my best friend were I went a bit off the rails and I think it’s probably a contributing factor. Just the state of mind I was in.

I've managed to kick this habit. I still sometimes get obsessed with a particular food but never unhealthily. I eat much more regularly but still don't eat breakfast. I don't know why but eating breakfast just makes me feel sickly. Not like I'm going to be sick just that I'm not well. I still exercise a fair amount, going to the gym most days or running with my dog but it's not the same as before. Before I would think...right so I've lost say...800 calories exercising, that means I can't eat more than that today. Very unhealthy. Whereas now it's more just because I enjoy running or going to the gym.

Addictions Part I

I think I have an addictive personality. I don’t see it as too much of a problem since I’m aware of it which I think is healthier than ignoring it. In the past I have been addicted to all sorts of things. At any one point I will be addicted to something. This thing could be a small irrelevant thing like a TV show or a type of food. Or it could be a much bigger thing like a person or not eating food. In the next few posts I’ll talk about the more serious ones as I don’t really care if I was obsessed with a TV show and I don’t think anyone else will be...

People

At times I’ve become obsessive over certain people. Never to a dangerous extent or stalker-ish but just were I think about them a lot, for longer than is justified. I would think about them before I went to sleep, when I got a text I would hope it was them etc. I somewhat believe this was a manifestation of being a closeted teen and not being able to express any attractions. It’s true it was more often than not an obsession with a guy, but sometimes it would be for female friends. It was just I would plan ways to talk to them, or get excited if I knew I was spending time with just them on a project or something along those lines. I wouldn’t be awkwardly invasive but I would enjoy being with them more than other people and make an effort to further our relationship or our bond. Usually this was fine and I would become better friends with them and the obsession would die after a short while. However, sometimes I think I would feel we were better friends than we actually were, and then be disappointed if they didn’t make as much effort as I felt they should.

I became particularly obsessed with one friend in particular who I’ve mentioned before. Let’s call him H. H was my best friend growing up and, although I had no initial attraction for him, once we became very close friends I found I thought of him...a lot! It became most obvious when he got his first girlfriend and therefore spent a lot of time with her. All his secrets and just general things he was thinking were now told to her instead of me and I became incredibly upset and jealous. It was at this point I sort of lost it and felt I would never be able to have a “normal” relationship like he did because I was gay. This was over 2 years ago now but for a 2 month period my addiction for him switched to an addiction much more serious which will come in a later post.

Over the past year or so I’ve come to realise being obsessed with friends rarely ends with me being satisfied so I’ve managed to stop this unhealthy habit and now take a much more relaxed approach to relationships. If I want to spend time with someone I’ll ask them but I won’t take it personally if they decline. Nor will I make a special effort in the future if someone is dismissive of me. I make effort with those that make effort with me and I now feel I have a more “true” friends and have distanced myself from those that took advantage of me. I feel I've mostly gotten over this "addiction" but who knows what will happen once I actually get a boyfriend. I'll could be a clingy mess but I doubt it.

Questions

I'm bored and can't sleep...and this is the result! :P

The questions were taken from the blog "Mind of Mine". I'm sure he won't mind :)

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
It depends in what way. If they were to cheat on me or lie to me about something serious then I would most likely cut them off and stop all contact. A while ago I would have said try to discuss it with them and find out why or what their reasons were but lately I've found it to be much more effective and less stressful to just stop making effort with those that are bad for you :)

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To be a successful singer/songwriter. I'm not a great singer and have only written a few songs which was purely down to a very musically inclined group of friends encouraging me to do so. I have absolutely no intention of pursuing this dream as I know I am just not talented enough but I love singing. Even when I'm awful I still really enjoy it. If I was good enough to do it for a living I would jump at the chance!

3. What is the one thing most hated by you?
Hmm, I hate a lot of things. A pet peeve of mine is when people leave stuff on sofas. Newspapers, plates, mugs, phones and particularly glasses! If you don't want you're glasses broken then do not leave them where I sit! It is the most infuriating thing. I actually just throw stuff to the other side of the room when it's left on the sofa it just really annoys me.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
This is very boring answer...but I would invest the majority of it. I would allow myself an allowance to spend and I would use the money to go through uni without getting any debt. I would DEFINITELY travel the world. I love travelling and that kind of money would give me so much freedom. Most of all I wouldn't tell anyone I had a billion dollars and I would never make it obvious by suddenly wearing diamond in-crusted shirts. I think it would come with so much expectation and make you become wrapped up in the money. I would never want a friend to expect money and I would never want myself to end up expecting something from a friend because I have given them gifts/money. I think its just simpler to keep it hidden. If I have a $100 in my bank account I don't announce it to everyone so why announce it when I have a billion :) (this careful consideration is pointless as I will never have a billion dollars...)

5. Could you fall in love with your best friend?

I have. I fell in love with my best male friend but at the same time was persuading myself that because I was so close to my best female friend I could get over the fact she was a girl and love her. I didn't.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
When someone has had feelings for me in the past and I haven't had any for them I've always felt guilty and confused about how to handle the situation. I never like it. Plus I also find people being overly complimentary/affectionate/friendly when I don't feel the same a huge turn off. Even in terms of friendships. Not that I like people playing hard to get.

Then when I have loved someone I always go through massive highs and lows. But the feelings are of course much more intense and even if it's unrequited I for some reason appreciate the fact I feel anything at all...so based on this I would say loving someone is more blessed.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
If this is asking how long before I "make do" then I'll wait forever. If this is asking how long I expect to wait till I fall in love, I say I'll fall in love in the next few years. I don't believe there is a "one", just people you're more compatible with.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
If I really liked them I would probably not do anything. Purely because if I did make a move and I was successful I would think less of the person I liked and probably not see any future relationship with them. If I was desperately in love I would perhaps tell them but not do anything while they are still coupled.

If I liked them just for sex I wouldn't make a move. I'm not going wreck someones relationship because of my lust.

9. If you'd like to act (movies, stage) with someone, who would it be?
Hmm, Ryan Gosling! I like every film I've seen him in and he's hot in a boyfriend way rather than a one night stand way. I actually find boyfriend-hot waayyy hotter :)

10. What do you expect of your loved one?
To love me. To be trustworthy but not to the extent where they must tell me everything they do but just a mutual understanding that we love and respect eachother enough not to lie or cheat. Also a relationship where, if there were problems we can openly say. I have had a few friendships like this in my life where we can openly state when there is an issue or one of us has a problem.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
10 years time I will be 28. I expect I'll be working full time but will love my job. I hope I'll have a boyfriend and we will travel together and possibly live together. (I kind of hope my boyfriend is foreign but it's not a deal breaker) We won't be married or in a civil partnership. I won't live in the UK, I will have moved to a different North-western European country or Canada or somewhere like that. I'll be happy.

12. What’s your fear?
That I'll fail at my studies/career. For many years now I've had a deep fear that I'm not as clever as I'm told or my grades suggest and that I will reach a level where it's too difficult and everyone will discover I'm actually not very intelligent. I have also wondered how much of my academic/career choices have been my own and how much are down to my upbringing and the influence of my family. Whenever I have performed badly I am most concerned by disappointing my family and not achieving the same standards of my older siblings.


13. Would you rather be single and rich or married, but poor?
If I had to be single for the whole of my life, I would most certainly rather be in love (not necessarily married) and poor. As long as I wasn't so poor it had adverse effects on the love...

14. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
Lie there thinking how bad my sleep was the previous night. I have an awful sleeping pattern and wake up most mornings with my alarm going of for the 15th time and feeling more tired than when I went to bed.

15. Do you ever hold back in a relationship?
I have never been in a long-term relationship with a man, only fleeting romances with girls during which I held back plenty!

16. If you fell in love with two people simultaneously, how would you pick?
I would hope I would pick the person that was best for me, or who loved me too. But in reality I would probably go for the one who I was more passionately attracted too, which in turn probably means they aren't very good for me. This is the case in the past but I've changed a lot in the past 6 months so maybe not...

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that special someone has done?
No. It takes me quite a long time to forgive people and I never forget. There are things friends have done to me years ago that I forgave them for at the time and they won't remember but I still remember them.

18. What are your three most important expectations in love?
Mutual understanding/trust, Honesty, Attraction

Films

Been to the cinema loads recently. Some of the films I've seen:

(I'm going to focus on the faults so if it seems like I hate all the films...I didn't!)

Hanna

I liked it! I didn't quite get into it as much as I would've liked because I was with a large group that decided to be pricks and make noise constantly. That is one of my pet peeves. I can't stand people making unnecessary noise in the cinema! Anyway, I felt it was trying to be more "artsy" than it really was. Either that or it had been altered to suit mainstream audiences which actually made it less enjoyable. And there were parts where I was just thinking, "why on earth they do that? That's ridiculous" But they were few and far between so overall decent movie.

4/5

Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides

I tend not to like sequels as often they are never as good as the first film and are often purely made because movie companies know there's already a fanbase so it's guaranteed to make money. (Shrek 4 for example is the most pointless movie ever made...ever) I loved the first PofC, the second was okay but no where near as good as the first and the third was just downright stupid so I wasn't expecting anything from the fourth. However, I was pleasantly surprised! It was much more simple like the first one. I felt the second and third tried way to hard and ended up just having far too many overlapping story-lines. I don't even remember what the third one was about! This one was much more basic and went back to the easy-going comedy side that I loved in the first one. Of course, the first is still the best but for a sequel I thought this was pretty darn good!

It also lacked the mind-numbingly forced "talents" of Knightley and Bloom which I think was a good thing. I hated the sub-plot of the "new Orlando Bloom" though. Some random pretty boy was captured and fell in love with a mermaid...It didn't contribute to the story AT ALL and was so vomit-inducing to watch. It was purely put in the film to fill the "2 young Caucasian pretty people falling in love" slot previously filled by Knightley and Bloom. Afterwards I was thinking, would they ever have a subplot where the handsome guy was Black? or the mermaid was Asian? Somehow I think not.

Depp was great as per usual and I think it was an improvement after the 2nd and 3rd. They still shouldn't make a 5th...

3.5/5

Thor

I again wasn't expecting much. It was better than I thought it would be and Chris Hemsworth is fiiiiiiiiiine! It's not a serious thinker but for passive entertainment it was okay. I didn't like the spontaneous romance between Thor and Natalie Portman's character. They literally met, spoke for 5 minutes and then were like, "I'll love you forever!" ...right.

I also felt it got worse when the battles and everyone from Thor's world came to Earth, it just was TOO unrealistic. I know it's fiction...quite clearly. But I just was not having it at all.

I also think my view of this film was improved because I saw it in this old fashioned cinema with massive leather armchairs and sofas. I had never been to one like this before and I think I enjoyed it so much I didn't care what film we saw I would love it either way!

(The random cameo by the guy in the Hurt Locker was a strange addition...I thought I was seeing things as he was in it for all of 5 seconds)

3/5

Limitless

I was expecting great things. I was disappointed. It was okay, but not as good as I had hoped. There were also far too many inconsistencies which I'm a stickler for. One example...He takes two sips of some guys blood and he's superman again...but that was one pill in 8 pints...he had about 10ml and he somehow the pill worked on him? It wasn't amazing. Also came across as like a more serious version of the film Click with Adam Sandler.

2.5/5

Fast 5

Awful, awful movie! Paul Walker cannot act! It was full of cheesy one liners. A lot of people seemed to love this movie and say it was the best of the bunch. I understand the whole franchise is cheesy and light entertainment but this was by far the most pointless/cheesy/awful out of the bunch. I actually liked the others! Fourth the most.

It pissed me off that they raced to get cars and didn't' even show the race! That's what the whole franchise is about! Car chases!

Also the bit at the end where they drag a safe that is quoted as weighing something like 10 tons with cars that weigh about 2 tons...and the safe goes flying off into buildings and the cars don't even slow down slightly. Shite. You have to be in a very easily amused mood to enjoy it.

0.5/5

Attack the Block

Awesome! Loved it! I thought it was well done and highlighted some important issues about poverty and racism in my country. Great film :) I don't know how people from other countries would find it but I thought it was excellent.

4.5/5

Chalet Girl

I got dragged to this. It's fairly predictable but it's entertaining enough and I actually quite liked it! For teen romance genre it was surprisingly good.

3/5

Disappearance of Alice Creed (on DVD)

Good thriller! Quite graphic if you don't like any nudity or violence but it is an 18 so it's to be expected. I really enjoyed it though and I thought the cast were very good.

4/5

Tron Legacy

I fell asleep. I was very tired but I suspect I would have fallen asleep anyway. Really didn't enjoy it.

1/5

Scream 4

I only saw the first Scream about a month ago and really liked it so went to see the fourth and thought it was really good. For the genre, I thought it was actually really entertaining and I enjoyed it. I also liked the fact there were loads of random cameos, like Kristen Bell and Sookie Stackhouse from Tru Blood.

4/5

The Human Centipede

My brother showed me the trailer for this when it came out in 2009 and it looked disgusting but part of my felt I had to see it so I could just say I had haha! It was on tv in the middle of the night recently so I watched it. It was fairly low budget and incredibly disgusting but I still felt like I had accomplished something by watching it.

For disgusting horror 5/5

For entertaining plot 1/5

The King's Speech

Excellent! So glad Colin Firth won...well everything basically! :D

5/5

The Fighter

Very very good film. I really enjoyed it! Also was surprised at how good Mark Wahlberg was in it! definitely worth a watch.

4.5/5

The Town

Really liked it. Felt a little...short. I'm not sure why, the story just felt quite bare. I didn't like Blake Lively in it. Although I've mentioned before that she could make me straight, she's just an awful actress! She should just sit and look pretty :) Everyone else was terrific.

4/5

I saw lots more but that's all I can think of at the moment.

New movies I want to see:

Bridesmaids - It looks bloody hilarious!

Hangover part II - I actually suspect this will be an awful sequel but I enjoyed the first one so I will dutifully go and see this too.

Blue Valentine - I like all the films I've seen with Ryan Gosling and I'm a sucker for tragic-romance movies.

X-Men: First Class - Looks fun and I like films were people have superpowers because I then spend the rest of the day thinking about what superpower I would want most.

I also kind of want to see Bad Teacher and Horrible Bosses. Even though they don't look great from the trailer and Cameron Diaz really annoys me (The Holiday was mind-numbing) I still like blockbuster comedies with lots of money behind them. It's easy entertainment.

I might be back...we'll see.

So it's a little silly that my last post is titled "I'm back!" and then I disappear...but ah well. I've been pretty busy over the past month or so.

I turned 18! woop woop! nothing changed apart from the fact I could vote for that AV referendum thingy. Everyone was complete idiots about it anyway and it didn't go through but not everyone can be as enlightened as me :)

Nothing else has changed really...I went to buy alcohol (not even for myself) in a supermarket for the first time and didn't get asked for i.d. Rather insulting considering the supermarket has a policy where they request i.d. from everyone that looks under 25... fml :(

I went out a few times but again didn't get i.d.'d. I've frequented many of the places when I was 17 anyway :/ The one place I had always avoided as they have a strict reputation just let me walk in no questions asked. I don't like looking old :( I don't even think I do! Maybe 19, 20 max! Not bloody 25!

I also got a very be-a-utiful macbook pro for my birthday from my parents! I'm not normally spoilt like this, it's just tradition that they go all out on your 18th and 21st. Plus I'll need it for uni next year so it's a good investment. Also got shitloads of money from my sister to go visit her on the other side of the world. She has a pretty well-paid job so she can afford it but it was still VERY generous! I suspect she would not be so generous if the money wasn't to go see her! Ha! Still very much appreciated.

I had my last day of high school. I have 3 more exams to go and sit before the end of the month but I am officially no longer a high school student! :D There's also the school show, prom and awards to go to but no more classes. At the moment I really should be studying but it's so so boring. I've had one exam and it went awfully. It's normally my best subject but this paper was just impossible! Everybody felt the same though so I'm hoping the pass marks will be lowered.

Cannot wait for these exams to be done and then I have just under 4 months to travel and work and go out and tan and have fun before uni :D It's going to be good!

So yeah... I'm back for now. I may completely abandon this again but I hope not. I enjoy it when I actually get around to doing it.